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Me, myself and I! "No one controls my actions or thoughts That's what my daily "MindLights" inspiration card was for today and it gave me the willies! Let me let you into a little secret - I have been having an affair! Yep, I'm married but this is not that type of affair - it does not involve another person - it's an affair with myself. It's a love/hate relationship that I have had going for years involving me, the bathroom scale, mirrors and my wardrobe! and yes, it is governed by the same emotions as any roller-coaster relationship - love, fear, acceptance, disgust, sometimes almost hate! One day I can be totally in love with who I am - the mirror is my friend, the scale is complimentary (no roses from it tho'!, and even the clothes in my wardrobe seem fresh and fit well. The morning cup of coffee is delicious, the kids on their best behaviour, the traffic's a breeze and work is easy to finish in the allotted time. Then there are the days when the gloom comes riding in - it's the day you wake up to discover that there is a new wrinkle on your once smooth face, or heaven forbid - a huge pimple on your nose! That's when the relationship wavers - you look at yourself in that hateful mirror and stare - who is this? I don't like what is before me - what did I do to deserve this! Yep a women's perfect answer to everything that goes wrong "what did I do?" On this same day, the scale shouts obscenities at me - it found more kilo's to pile onto it's digital face! The clothes I put on just seem wrong or for another version of me. My hair doesn't want to go where I want it to, and it doesn't stop there! My coffee gets spilt on my lap, my kids are a nightmare, the traffic is worse than usual, I'm late, my boss is in a grumpy mood and I cant seem to finish my daily tasks. And the day drags on and on with more things that go wrong or test my patience! So what happened overnight! Well, it was my first look in the mirror that did it and instead of me deciding that the wrinkle was from all the laughter the night before and that the pimple was just a reminder of that delicious death-by-chocolate dessert we shared! Instead of getting upset about what I saw in the mirror, I should have chosen to either try and conceal the pimple under copious amounts of make-up and accept that wrinkles were just life lines from enjoyment and smiling. Instead I took what I saw and took it to heart, already deciding that if that was the start of the day it was only going to get worse - which it did. I could have looked at myself in full in the mirror and decided that the total picture wasn't that bad - loved myself for who I was!...... and chose to enjoy the day and myself - despite my self! So, this morning when I woke up and saw that same pimple, an awful bed-head hairstyle and a couple more grams on the ever-demanding bathroom scale - I chose! I chose to be myself, to love myself for who I am and for what I am in my heart - me! Be the best you, that you can be! "Who are you when no one else is around? " Bevskins! PS. For more articles written by Bevskins [ Read More ] |